Flying Solo

Since Wednesday of this past week, my dear of a husband has been out of town. Per usual, our time apart started with whiny text messages and pleas for him to put me in his suitcase . . . but after I realized I really wasn't going to be invited to tag-along to the bachelor party at the beach (the nerve!), I gave up, baked him cookies and sent him on his merry little way.

I have to admit, it's been kinda nice to eat whatever I felt like for dinner (CEREAL=SCORE!), lay in bed much longer than my "hops out of bed at the first ring of the alarm clock" spouse would ever deem appropriate, and basically do whatever I felt like whenever I felt like it. Other than the obvious working part of my week (bummer, huh?) I have used these days of self-indulgence in the following ways:


Hosted a dinner party with delightful company and delicious cuisine,


slept uninhibited in the glorious MIDDLE OF THE BED!!!!


Did some shopping in Ft. Worth (on the way I saw a SECOND appearance of the STEAK BUS!!!) and meet up with mi familia at the muy delicioso Joe T. Garcia's . . . (and yes, this is a stock photo. Dad hasn't taken up the straw golf hats just yet).


I spent a majority of my Sunday afternoon trying to remind my skin that we had in fact just a month ago been in the Caribbean and we should look like it. (And yes, that is more Harry Potter, bless his heart - what a brave little wizard!) While it has been a full but relaxing few days, I was officially over it as of yesterday morning.

I've realized that when Triple B is gone, I'm just a bit off in all sorts of ways. One example is that I lose track of time and stay up way too late doing Lord only knows what, and subsequently sleep late and have to rush off to work less than well-groomed. oops. I've realized I am perfectly fine by myself, I'm just better when he's around. He balances me in a way that I need (like the whole bathing thing), and I feel like I'm a better me because of him.

I love how in each phase of your life - be it married, single, babies, no babies, the Lord gives you exactly who and what you need. I know that I needed these few days to rest, reflect, and reconnect. I know that Baxter & I needed these years of just us so that we are well grounded and connected for this next season of our lives. I know that there are days ahead where trying to exist in a foreign country and culture will scare the beejeezus out of me, and I'm so thankful to have a partner who knows and believes in me deeply, even on the inevitable days when I won't believe in myself.

Well, I could go on forever about the kid, but that could get annoying to everyone but his mama. So, for now I'm off to listen for a truck to pull in the driveway and make it look like I showered today. I'm so thankful I get to be the one who he comes home to, and who pretends like hygiene is a priority. : )